Otay

We’re going to weigh it all out here. Yes, today is going to be one of those totally fucking boring (yet extremely open) posts about what my day involved. With commentary and songs!

You’re welcome.

Pros (aka not just not-so-bad shit I did):

1. Went to court to get interim order. They gave me the wrong form, so now the long-winded one (which I would’ve had to do, anyways) has been filed and I ended up going home with the interim one.
2. Went to Employment Assistance to set appointment for welfare application.
3. Got approved for legal aide, just need to fax in bank records and call back in a coupla days for lawyer’s name.
4. Went for a walk with my favourite hippy consumeristic mommy.
5. Mommy friend made me feel amazing about all of this stuff. She’s been there, she did that, she’s rockin now. It meant a lot coming from her to hear, “you can so do this. I’m so proud of you. It’s going to be great.”
6. Got told by like, eight different people that they’re proud of me. Both in and outside the internets.
7. Didn’t reply to the war-email-of-the-day from my exMIL.
8. Didn’t argue with JDawg when he called several times today. Didn’t even answer the phone. Returned his call when I was calm enough to do so. Asked if he was putting the rent in my account or not, he offered a lower amount than he owes and I said, “you could give X amount, but you won’t.” He agreed that he won’t. And I said, “okay, good bye,” and hung up. That, for me, was mature.
9. Got my locks changed.
10. Informed applicable neighbours of the situation (a cop and a bouncer), as per law-people’s recommendation.
11. House was clean from yesterday, so even with Isobel causing a tornado, it took 10 mins to clean up.
12. I ate three times today.
13. I’m feeling very positive. Very ‘the universe will take care of you.’ Very much ‘open your doors and let down your walls and everything that should will come to visit.’ I’m feeling like a hippy.
14. You guys? All ROCK. I woke up smiling huge to my comments and thank you for that!
15. After napping for about 45 minutes in the stroller today, Isobel went to bed a little early and without much complaint, fell asleep easy. Just like yesterday. In a dress.
16. I did not lose my shit on her once. Even when she hit me in the eye with a book.
17. I was told that I have beautiful skin today. I don’t agree, but it was nice to be told.
18. I have some plans to make some soup (in the crockpot) while we’re out and about tomorrow, and I’m excited. Seriously. Isobel loves soup (new discovery!) and I’ve got some steak, potatoes, snap peas and carrots with our names on them.
19. My Power Song of the day.

Cons (aka stuff that kinda sucks, blows, bites, licks and/or is generally unpleasant):

1. Must return interim order tomorrow morning, since it was almost naptime by the time we realized the wrong form was being filed.
2. Have to have JDawg served with the long-winded application – at a cost. Unless someone over 19 does it who’s willing to attest to it in court. (Therefore, at a cost.)
3. Got paperwork to fill out before welfare will do an intake interview and then set appointment. Must return tomorrow, finished.
4. Didn’t fax in bank records, yet. Tomorrow!
5. During walk with mommy friend, bought instant coffee (needed, basically) and spaghetti sauce (we have two already, but it’s going for a great sale price). Operation: Clean Out the Cupboards has been breached!
6. Isobel fell asleep in the stroller on the way home from the court stuff. Face-first in the snack tray. Meant I couldn’t go home, cuz then naptime would be over. Bought fruit (needed!) and sat at Starbucks with a friend, chatting. Operation: Don’t Spend Any Money has been breached, as well!
7. Got told I live in cyber-land, not reality and called one of the most heartless people my exMIL has ever known. Apparently, I need to grow up and stop being selfish – and need professional help to do so but am probably too stubborn to get it.
8. I still have to do dishes. Even though there’s not many and I could leave them, the thought of waking up with them clean? Blows my mind.
9. I still haven’t cleaned the bathtub or given Isobel a bath since she came home from Mr Lady’s.
10. You don’t even wanna know how long it’s been since I showered. Seriously. This time’s a record.
11. I still have to fill out all of the forms, print out my bank statements and be ready to drop all of this stuff off tomorrow, and it’s 11 o’clock already.
12. Laundry? Like six loads.
13. Garbage and recycling? Two trips, without a kiddo.
14. I’ve smoked seven smokes today. Quitting seems bleak.
15. Swiss mocha instant coffee + white corn tortilla chips + salsa con queso = worst aftertaste ever.
16. Because Isobel is currently wearing her third dress of the day, it’s occured that I’m really going to need easy access to laundry facilities, when I move.
17. I hate my hair.
18. My Weakness Song of the day.

Pros WIN!

And just for the ultimate in douchebaggery? Here’s my two most usual JDawg is gone songs here and here. Yeah, I listen to a lot of music when…well, I listen to a lot of symbolic music.