Spent, Just Spent.
Posted on March 30, 2008
Filed Under confessions of a confessaholic, daily drama, expansion, let's be friends, terrible twos |
The evillest thing in the world right now is a toddler who refuses to nap, argues everything due to overtiredness and then will not just GTF to sleep at (early) bedtime. I am wiped. I am so far past wiped, I’m living in bitchville, where my kiddo was rocked for a few minutes, until the protesting kicks pissed me off too much and she was deposited in her crib with a hug, kiss and curt, “I love you, go to sleep.”
The protesting is only growing louder and more dramatic and I’m thinking, “dammit, I need a vacation. Or a nap. Or a nap while on vacation,” knowing that I will have to go back into her room to soothe the devil out of her and repeat the whole lying down and bedtime speech. And I know it won’t do a damn thing cuz this is just one of those days where she is exhausted but will not give in and I am exhausted and only want to give in.
It’s moments like last night when I second guess myself. Well, moments like last night followed up by mornings like today. JDawg came down for a visit last night and stayed to watch a movie (Revolver, loved it.) and well, as he does, ended up drunk and sleeping over. And despite my lack of fornication with him, there he was at one am (keeping me awake, f@*&*&#er), spooning me and saying that he’s happy that I’m having his second baby - that he can’t think of anyone else he’d want it to be than me.
Cheesy. Normally a complete turn-off, like hugs from strangers who pretend to love me out of service to the family. Maybe it was the hormones that are already flooding my body (yes, I did cry three times while reading some chick lit today, thankyouverymuch), but it made me go “awwwwwwwwww” internally and say nothing out loud.
To compensate for this emotional effect, I made fun of him this morning for being sappy.
While he was taking Isobel and I out to look at baby stores so I could finish window shopping on a) carriers/slings, b) cloth diapers and c) belly bands.
When I started this window shopping, a salesperson at the first place that had the belly bands - elastic panels you can wear over regular, undone pants to avoid maternity wear - told me that women typically gain more weight with the second pregnancy than the first, so not to judge my ability to avoid mat wear based on my size with Isobel. What A Buzzkill.
Does that explain why yesterday, the beginning of my fifth week, I woke up no longer with six-packs and with a little buddha belly? Just a little fucking early for a belly, can’t we all agree? With Isobel, I wore size ones until about 20 weeks. I grew into them, FF’sS. But no, this time, I’m already unbuttoning my size 26 jeans by 2pm.
Which were in need of a belt a week ago.
Probably just as moody:
- From now on, She will be referred to as ‘She.’ Oy. Last night she woke up at least eight times. I lost count after 5am. The first time was at...
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Size 26?
We are no longer friends.
Dude, kid one, I showed at 3 months. Kid two? The day before the positive test. It’s not that you gain more weight necessarily (I gained less) but your uterus knows what it’s doing this time, and is doing it EFFICIENTLY.
Mr Lady’s last blog post..Perhaps I should take some pictures of the first kid, too.
Ah, gotta “love” those hormones! We women are so “blessed”! @@
Stacey @Real World Mom’s last blog post..Scrolling Saturday (#5)
I definitely started showing earlier with my second kid, but gained the same amount of weight with both.
Wish I could give you some magic words for the bedtime drama… my boy was the same way, the more tired he was the crazier he acted. He finally outgrew it by the time he was 3 or 4.
Tara R.’s last blog post..Shiny stuff and thank yous
Awww, the joys of being pregnant again….. Stupid uterus.
meanwhile, I’m NOT pregnant but look like it. how wrong is that?
mombabe’s last blog post..Get Moving Monday!
We can’t be friends anymore. Do they even make size 1’s?
I wore the belly band this last time around and loved it. Yup, I showed earlier and earlier with each pregnancy.
OHmommy’s last blog post..Stop the Press!
Bitch, I was double your size when I was born. Seriously, I was put on a diet at three months cause I was rocking more fat in my chins than your bony ass will ever see in a lifetime. You’ll make pregnancy sexy, I’m sure.
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Sorry about the crazy hormones. Pregnancy is such a ride.
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ok…didn’t know you were pregnant!! i have been sooooo out of the loop!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! i hope you’re feeling well!
with my 3rd pregnancy, i started showing before i even knew i was pregnant and…i started feeling the little zygote move so freaking early!! i don’t remember when i started showing with my 2nd pregnancy…that was over 10 years ago!!
xoxo
Size 1? 20 weeks? I think I wore a size 1 in 5th grade. I showed with my first at 12 weeks
I heard women show quicker with the 2nd because they’re uterus has been stretched already, but many don’t end up gaining more weight.
Sandy (Momisodes)’s last blog post..It’s In The Bag! Really…It Is
WAIT A SECOND…I’ve been away for far too long…
YOu’re PREGGERS???
Dude…Congrats! (We are happy about this right??)
I want another baby soooo badly, but for the moment will live vicariously thru you and your expanding waistline.
Uh oh, looks like I have to start putting together a CVS BAby Booty Basket, eh!
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