Something Clever

Posted on March 24, 2008
Filed Under expansion, living in the past |

I signed up for Sarcastic Mom’s Birth Carnival, but, uh, I’m not really feeling up to reliving all of the details at this very moment in time. If you should be interested, feel free to read this. It’s long as all get out.

Just so you know, all of you with your niceness and emails and support and shoulders…so rad. Better than rad. The RADDEST. Somehow all of that helped to make this a little less scary and a little more realistic. And thus beginneth the first bitch session. Cuz you knew I’d be bitching, right? I mean, hello? Professional complainer over here!

Point One: adoption isn’t selling a baby and trying to convince me so will not convince me to have an abortion, just so that you don’t have to tell your family, again, that you’ve been shtooping your ex, again.

Point Two: I’m massively psychosomatically-influenced. As soon as I’ve known about a pregnancy, bam, symptoms show up and this time is no different - though a lot of them have been around for a week or two. Today, I got to throw up three times. And I’ve got a killer headache. That might be from the lack of caffeine.

Point Three: The best suggestion of the day from him, past that whole baby-selling thing, is that I won’t be able to take care of Isobel if I’m pregnant. Seems to me, I’ll be whale-like, not dead - cuz lordy-lordy, women still can take care of already-born kids while incubating another one.

Point Four: Seriously, why am I so effing tired and hell bent on baking when there’s a work deadline breathing down my neck?

Point Five: It’s kinda scary how easy to visualize it all is. Like really really easy to picture. But dammit, no decisions will be made for at least a few months.

Onto cuter things…

hanging on for dear life

thigh love

Probably just as moody:

  1. Evacuation (of my mind) K, so after I hit publish, there’s a 12 hour window before I pretend to forget about this, agreed? Good....

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10 Responses to “Something Clever”

  1. Huckdoll on March 24th, 2008 9:30 pm

    He’s trippin’ eh? I can hear the corks poppin’ from COQ. Forget about him and worry about yourself and Is.

    Huckdoll’s last blog post..I’ll make this sound a lot cooler in my blog….

  2. Mr Lady on March 24th, 2008 10:07 pm

    Grrr.

    GRRRRRR.

    Wook at dat wittle face, dude. You can do it again.

    Mr Lady’s last blog post..Making’ Babies

  3. Kim on March 25th, 2008 6:23 am

    I just read your post from yesterday, which makes this post makes sense now. Whatever your decision do it for you and baby girl. We are hear to listen to you vent.. and I have only known you for a very short time, but I can “see” you are one amazing, strong, in touch with reality kind of mom. Take your baby girls hand and it will all work out as planned.

    Kim’s last blog post..Trial and Error

  4. erin on March 25th, 2008 9:04 am

    oh.my.gosh. look at those eyeballs!!! heart

    erin’s last blog post..we need more ipods in the world.

  5. OHmommy on March 25th, 2008 10:10 am

    Her eyes?

    Oh my gosh… her eyes! I forgot about what you wrote cause I looked into her eyes. BEAUTIFUL!!!

    OHmommy’s last blog post..it was supposed to be a PLAYdate…

  6. miss madeleine on March 25th, 2008 12:35 pm

    “TA-DAH!” friggin adorable.

    miss madeleine’s last blog post..excitement all around!

  7. Tara R. on March 25th, 2008 2:48 pm

    If you can visualize it, you CAN do it… you are stronger than you give yourself credit for…

    Incredible, you could drown in those blue eyes…. WOW! You really do make beautiful babies.

    Tara R.’s last blog post..PSR: Public Service Rant

  8. kelly on March 25th, 2008 3:10 pm

    No, adoption isn’t baby selling, but I’ve seen a birthmother fall to pieces when she hands over the baby she knows she can’t raise. I have no right to say this, but out of love for the person I’ve come to read each day I will, honey that isn’t you. I said it last post and it is worth repeating. You can do this. I know you can.

    kelly’s last blog post..Pinch Me

  9. Sandy (Momisodes) on March 25th, 2008 7:25 pm

    I’m slow and went back to read the last post. Speaking as someone who loves reading your posts, you can do this. You are such a real, grounded individual, and an incredible mom to a gorgeous little girl. *Hugs*

    Sandy (Momisodes)’s last blog post..Wielding Sticks

  10. janethesane on March 25th, 2008 8:50 pm

    Holy cow! I totally missed something while I was gone. I am going to go back and catch up.

    janethesane’s last blog post..The Land of Tears

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