check. two loads of laundry almost done? check. kept snarky, though realistic and not unfair comments inside? check. childcare plan in place for two spinning classes and one morning of work a week? check. two loads of dishes done and currently drying? check. ate two meals plus a pizza for dinner? check. feel like a heffer? check.
why is simple logic like, “i’ll believe it when i see it,” and, “if you want her to love you, you have to do more than watch her interact with me while you sit across the room and drink wine and ocassionally ask her to come see you,” so damn complicated?
i mean, tonight, i was told about fh’s plans for when z goes to stay with him. um? so when’s that happening, because i never gave a green light for unsupervised visits and will not until he can go a whole day without vices of a chemical nature. i put that rule loudly in place two days after we split and nothing’s changed except that he will not respect my rule that he’s not to imbibe around her, anymore. especially not every time she sees him. though he will say, everytime we’ve fought about it, that he won’t do it anymore, at least so i can’t hold it against him.
i’m still waiting for him to prove me wrong…i’m not holding my breath.
