you know what's really fucking hard?*

your life. get over it. i am.

my life is so much better now because:

  • you were a shitty friend and a flake that i, my family and friends are more than happy to have out of our lives.
  • i no longer have to listen to you shit talk about everyone you are friends with, your parents and your husband.
  • i don’t have to comment on your immature “writing” because you are concerned that you’re not getting comments and therefore everyone hates you.
  • i don’t have to tiptoe around any of my friends now, just in case they might flip out at me over me, for example, saying i don’t have a babysitter so that i am able to take a job.
  • i don’t have anyone in my life right now who would turn on me on a dime and call me deluded, a loser, someone who fucks everything up and a bad mother. oh and sick. that was my favourite – from someone who can’t even go off of medication without flipping out on everyone in the world and punching themselves in the head repeatedly after maybe possibly accidentally-intentionally taking an overdose.
  • i don’t have to, out of pity, invite anyone to family functions that i will later have to apologize to my family about.
  • i don’t have to listen to you talk repeatedly about having a baby, not having a baby, wanting a baby, how much my daughter loves you (she didn’t and doesn’t) and how i should hang onto all of my baby stuff for you cuz you will probably need it all as soon as z grows out of it. oh and the one we all laughed about – the hypothetical baby.
  • i’m not concerned that one of my friends is either such a cunt as to call child services when they are not really concerned, just to stab me in the back or alternatively, if they are concerned, too chicken shit to mention their concern or make the call prior to the “incident.”
  • i don’t have any one who calls themselves my best friend who would blatantly lie to me about the extent of their online relationships with other people. i guess, what, to make me jealous?
  • i don’t have to feel guilty about someone repeatedly telling me that they feel bad because they can’t talk to me about my health for fear that i will have a problem with it. cuz you know, being a coward and being concerned but respectful of how your concern is not wanted are two separate things.
  • i don’t have anyone who obviously kisses my ass when they love me and talks shit about me to friends they said they never wanted the rest of the time.
  • i don’t have to spend time with people who are so desperate for attention that they, for example, would make up lies about assaults because the guy they fucked didn’t want to date them.
  • i don’t have to call anyone pretty that i mostly find unattractive.
  • i don’t have to tell anyone they look thin in a bikini, when they should have laid off of the burgers and their ass is 130% the width of mine.
  • i don’t have to listen to someone to bitch for years about their former friend borrowing and not returning their shit, only for them to do the exact same thing to me – knowing that it’s not even my shit that they’re refusing to return.

i could think of a lot more things, in fact, i, right this moment, have a mental list of 54 reasons i’m happy to no longer be part of your life. i also have had a draft post saved since your call about zoë’s welfare – a great one, really – wherein i use your very own words about how you really feel about most of your friends and family.

most of all, i would like to express the following: you should be concerned as to who your friends are because people talk and msn and email and i have been made aware just to what extent you have “taken the high road and not discussed the incident with anyone.”

so, you can stop talking about me, at least on the fucking internet, you uneducated twat.

* you should know, this is not a threat so much as fun for me now, because as soon as you made that phone call that brought people to my door a day and a half later, it became very important to me that you hurt. and nothing hurts more than telling someone what you (and the world) really think of them. especially when that’s almost everything of import to them.

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  • rilah -

    I think I found your blog via MG forum. (You'll know which one I'm referring to just in case your "friend" is stalking you on your blog)

    I read through your post and it sounds like you have been stabbed in the back (figuratively of course) by somebody that deserves never to be spoken to again.

    Drop her quicker than flies on poop and don't ever be friends with her again. There is no making up with this person.

    It's a done deal. You can pray for her. You can forgive her to yourself. But it's clear she is not capable of ever being your friend. A friend would not have made such a serious phone call. The implication alone is enough to ruin any chance of having any type of a career w/out the extra harassment of having to explain a document that should have never existed in the first place.

    If it happens again make sure that you press charges after you call the police. Get an attorney too!

  • HS

    I'm sorry to hear that you've had a fight with your friend however I have learned that it is best to keep these fights private.
    Best to you.

  • You know, I can't speak to the factualness of any of this. I know there's a rift between two people I like. Okay, that's done. Just do what's best for you and try to take the high road. Any energy spent on hurting someone else is energy wasted that you'll never get back.

  • She won't move on because she did a horrible thing for a pointless reason and it BLEW UP in HER FACE and she is now trying to play the innocent victim, by the way the high road would equate fessing up to this heinous act and asking forgiveness, NOT being all woe is Me and Adam booHOO.

  • Geez - just throw out the trash. Life is too short to hold onto all of your trash. I just turned 30 and realized that I need to be selfish and think of ME only ME and surround myself with people that make ME happy. I have t hrown out my trash. You are a good mother.

  • Mandy

    reading comments i see it is the you-know-who friend... ya she is psycho - we went thru this - don't waste time insulting her with words, her life is punishment enough..... her pretend babies, her pretend friends, her visious ability to waste everyones tax dollars having child services pursue an unwarranted case..... everyone loves her and she will live a happy life of misery - - - (happy for everyone rid of her misery ) yippeee

  • Mandy

    is this you know who....

  • in case it's not overwhelmingly obvious to everyone who wants to leave a comment in support of the person i'm speaking about, my statement:

    great, she's your friend. enjoy it while it lasts. also, i will discontinue mentioning this on here when she moves on. but see, i know her, and no matter what spin she puts on it about whatever it is that i apparently did wrong, i know that inside, she feels bad about herself and her actions and won't move on because of it.

  • rilah

    so, CJ, it's totally cool for you to be protective of your friend, but can you clarify a few things for me?
    -how did i mess up and not put my hand up to my mistake?
    -what the hell does that mean anyways?
    -why were they only concerned after 1am on an evening when she thought my friend was threatening to beat her up (but wasn't)?

    if i sound like a stuck record, here's an idea, CJ. stop reading. but i DO understand the need to lurk - how else would she know what may or may not be being said about her (since she's "taken the higher road")? now, go reread and supportively comment on her post, since she's going through such a "life altering" time.

  • Ok, so seeing as this is raging on i'm taking
    the much needed step of saying....
    Terra, shut up. just drop it,
    You messed up, you didn't put your hand up to
    your mistake, fine. Some people got sared about your ability to look after your child, ok, fine,
    If you're a good mother then social services
    won't (and didn't) take your child away.
    So again, fine, yes yes yes,
    "No one understands the plight of the single
    mother struggling to survive" well actually some of us do. and so again, fess up and shut up....
    ...you sound like a stuck record and some of us are sick of it.

    Thanks.

  • and she's obviously NOT consumed because she's never mentioned it

  • This person sounds like a fucking lunatic who brought it all on themself and a wordpress post as retaliation is absolutely warranted, they deserve more actually. Fight the fight Rilah, when someone fucks with your kid over facebook paranoia it is way revealing of their character.

  • i'm really not willing to debate about whether i have a right to harbour anger, me. seriously, if your "BFF" called child services on you a week after you stop being friends in an attempt to punish you for something a third party said and then, what, 4 months later, was still blogging about the fight, you'd have a problem with harbouring, too.

  • ME

    I am talking about the anger you are harbouring consuming you, nothing to do with your daughter and your love towards her.

  • ...some people really suck.

  • rilah

    yes. i am happy she is out of my life.
    no, i am not going to give up the effort of attack, since she DID try to have my child taken away from me. since i am not the violent type, words will work.

    ps. what totally consumes me? taking care of and loving my daughter.

    and i really love the anonymous comments, IP 64.251.68.98.

  • Me

    Woah, someone is obviously more upset by all this than she realizes. With soemone you are SO happy to have out of your life, you are spending WAY too much time trying to attack them. So either kiss and make up or put the past behind you before it totally consumes you

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