so, she’s teething again. i think i’ve mentioned that. teething for zoë means everything is normal, just with more drool. except for between the hours of 1 and 9 am. then all hell has broken loose.
this is shitty. totally.
because i was only nursing her in the morning and during the nights and therefore she’s not really breastfeeding now and i wasn’t really ready to stop. i was holding onto the once to twice a day, hopefully til she was a year. maybe once she’s done with these damn teeth coming in, she’ll go back to predictable breastfeeding. maybe this is coinciding with her deciding she’s done nursing. but i really enjoy the cuddling time, the relaxed baby moment and the fact that she seems to have a super immune system. i mean, come on, she’s only gotten sick once in her life so far and she’s been hanging out with tons of other kids on a daily basis.
so i don’t know what this will mean for the relationship between zoë and my boobs.
i always said that if a child an actually ask for boobs, then it’s prolly time to cut the booby cord. so this is iffy, cuz she will grope me when she hears, “is it time for boobies?” so like, hmmm. and a couple times, she’s accidentally responded to”boobies” with “booo-b”.
and don’t even get me started on the cost and work needed to formula feed. i mean, the washed, sterilizing, drying. we never don’t have bottles drying on our dish-rack.
but on the positive side. i can wear normal bras.
i can drink if i want to (just in time for me to make the decision that i was getting too attached to drinking. i went from a couple drinks a month ago, to one every other night or so, to a couple-few nightly, after breastfeeding was finished…hmm. dodgy).
i can stop drinking whole milk and eat a mostly vegetarian diet (including broccoli!).
i can stop taking the damn postpartum vitamin.
she might keep weight on better (i swear, if the kid misses one snack, she loses half a pound. currently, she’s back to 17 after dropping down to 15.5 from 19 pounds). all this walking and activity, i’m sure, is burning off the weight. she’s already losing a bit of her chubbiness.
i might (gasp) be able to leave her for some extended times. like, longer than an hour or so.
so how do i feel? like she’s growing up too fast.
