i’m getting even less sleep now than i was, but this time it’s not her fault. actually, after an hour or two of sporadic awakenings after going to bed between 7:30 and 8, she’s been a pretty good sleeper for the last week or so. only getting up a couple times and only for about 10 mins and then going back to sleep like a good girl.
so what’s keeping me awake? nothing as cool as this. i have slowly been catching up on my to do list. i think i was at about 35 items before, both cuz shit needs to get done but also cuz i’m just good at making lists and now, i may have knocked it down to about 25, but then i’ve added a few more.
have i mentioned that i used to start a three day awake-playing computer games-drinking coffee and chain smoking-not eating manic point this way? it always began with the to dos and then i’d get overwhelmed and sit down with a frothy white mocha and a pack of american marlboros at my desktop – the point was to relax by matching those tiny little coloured balls. then it became a competition and that i would win. i had to. only when i made a certain level, would i take breaks and only to get another coffee. pee. grab more smokes from the carton. throw out empties. occasionally, i’d add some fireball whiskey into the mix and that’s when things would get even more fun.
but that was a while ago. this is now. right?
this is both stressful and inspiring. i’ve been averaging a 1am bedtime. this means my head hits the pillow and then i’m out for between 45 and 115 minutes, then get up for a feed. then a couple more hours and another feed. then an hour or so and it’s time to start the life of a housewife. at around 6:30. that’s am. just so you know.
did i mention that i got a job and i start next week? i’lll write more about it later, but this is adding both to the anxiety and the list. cuz i won’t have my standard 15 minutes during the day to get shit done. and dr daddy will be flying solo until he has another job to start.
oh and have i mentioned recently that the internet is starting to resemble the stereotypes about overpopulated areas of the world? people are fighting each other over for the stupidest reasons. people are calling virtual strangers cunts. i fucking hate that word. i personally recently got called a junkie. matt good’s exwife had a new blog, it was flamed horribly after he mentioned it in a supportive gesture – she’s since removed the blog in it’s entirety. then there’s a bloggie friend who was called a self-absorbed bitch. sorry – did i misunderstand that the point of a personal, journalized blog is to be absorbed in yourself? come on be nice, dammit.
don’t make me spank you.
update: yes, once again i found interesting links on matt’s site. this is the article from the BBC in regards to web manners, etc. and whether a formal code of conduct is required.
