i’m sorry that i didn’t realize how much of an asshole i am. i mean, yeah, you’re right, i’m completely unsupportive and completely untrustworthy cuz all i do is tell you everything that’s wrong with YOU.
and yeah, that time that you called me the stupidest cunt you’d ever met ten times in an hour (three weeks ago), yup no problem with that one, cuz you’re a fucking genius who is just teaching me everything that i’m too naive to notice.
so really, i should bow down cuz you have it all to-fucking-gether and are a great example of how people should live their lives. nevermind that you are throwing yours in the fucking toilet twice a week in the form of puking before work because you’re so fucking hung over.
and yeah, i HAVE spent the last five years catering to your ups and downs (i know, you have too) and covering up shit and calling in sick to work for you and making sure that we had money for beer because i’m a selfish prick and it’s all about ME.
and i’m almost done with this but i know, you think that you can play the lithium card and scare me into thinking that you’re cooler and healthier and better than me but you know what?
FUCK YOU AND THE FUCKING GOAT YOU RODE IN ON.
i hate you and you make me wanna die.
and it makes me even sadder to know that i will continue this lack of stability cuz i think it’s the closest to helping that i can do. and if you don’t like it, then FUCK YOU FOR THAT, TOO, cuz everyone’s doing it, tiptoeing to make sure that you don’t fall off the fucking drunk bridge into a life of constant OBVIOUS suicide.
AND NO i don’t really mean anything said here but i’m tired of being the one to blame for your problems.
and look, now you’ve just walked back in the door cuz you’re not going to work cuz you’re not doing this to YOURSELF today. what was yesterday? who did it to you then? and yeah, YOU DON’T CARE WHAT I FUCKING THINK. good parting line before you go back to bed.
