i am so sleep deprived because: i started having contractions on sunday afternoon and was thinking that they were just more severe braxton hicks ones. now i’m not so positive because there’s some other signs that my overanalytical mind has noticed. they get worse after a hot shower or a walk. they get better if i lie down, but don’t go away. they are still inconsistently spaced, but are coming more often then they were, now every 5-35 minutes and lasting from 15-35 seconds. they feel like period cramps, which used to feel like someone stabbing my entire back and uterus with a warm, vibrating cow branding iron. they didn’t used to feel like that, so we shall see. if they are an intro to the real thing, i’m sad, cuz it’s too early (33 weeks today)!
i’ve decided to start participating in half nekkid thursday, since i have a lot of skin and now a digital camera. there should be some interesting things to come. click the links for more details.
i taught myself how to make some squares and am now putting together a patchwork-style baby blanket, since the baby’s 2 grandmas are crafty ladies and one has crocheted, the other sewed blankets. i needed to feel like i was contributing, so as to prove to the unborn devil that i indeed do love him/her.
this is what love looks like.
edited: i went to the doctor and she says that i’m one of those lucky few who is having really severely painful braxton hicks contractions. she says that i was made to be pregnant – based on how i carry it – but not made for pregnancy because i’m 5 for 6 in pregnancy-induced conditions. if i had gestational diabetes i’d be 6 for 6 – but i never got the test done…
