this is my 101th post in this blog. praise be to jebus that i’ve maintained motivation long enough to make it to 101.
this insomnia is killing me and my sleep schedule is all outta wack. which is wack. cuz in a month or two, i’ll have little to no hope of having a sleep schedule at all – wack or not. i was mega sleeping a few weeks ago. i could go for hours at a time and then wake up and blog or msn or whatever and then just poof, back to sleepyland. now, i’m awake when i wanna be sleeping and nodding when i wanna be articulate and hoping that there are people on msn when they’re all in sleepland.
i know it’s normal. it’s the huge belly. it’s the thoughts running through my head. it’s the 12am hunger and the 3am hunger. it’s the 1am potty break and the 3:30am potty break and then the 4:45am potty break, right before it’s time to get up and kiss the doctor goodbye for work. it’s the heartburn from eating spicy food, garlicy food, acidy food, no food and mild food. it’s that the fan is on and blowing in my face or that the fan is not on and my face is burning up.
it’s that i’ve officially gotten tired of being pregnant. it’s the concern over how soon it really is that i will not be pregnant. it’s the pile(s) of laundry, still not washed. it’s the doctor kicking. it’s the baby kicking. it’s the BH contractions. it’s the upcoming father’s day/birthday/wedding/bills. it’s worrying that i don’t have enough undershirts for the baby and that i have too many pajamas.
it’s mild curiosity as to why i don’t own footed pajamas with snap crotches.
it’s smoking too much, or not enough, when i’m TRYING to sleep. it’s just not being able to sleep.
