there are some new revelations and events and expenses in my life – one of which has inspired the following:
Lethargic
Ionically charged
Tumbling down the rabbit hole
Hiding from myself
Inside my cave
Under skin woven
Made for protection.
and to quote the most true words I’ve ever read:
“I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out fucked and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warrenty ran out. But that was so long ago.
“I start to think that there really is no cure for depression, that happiness is an ongoing battle, and I wonder if it isn’t one I’ll have to fight for as long as I live. I wonder if it’s worth it.
“I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong.” ~ Prozac Nation – Elizabeth Wurtzel
